Today, I’m currently 20 weeks and 5 days! We are officially halfway there! My baby bump continues to grow and her kicks are getting more and more pronounced and frequent. It’s amazing and makes it so real. This is really happening!
With being halfway, I thought I would take a break from the usual updates and do something a little different. Here is a quick update for those who are wondering, though:
Our 20 week OB appointment went well yesterday. Nora’s heart rate was in the 140’s and I’m measuring just at 22 weeks but Doc thinks it has something to do with my fluid retention. I’ll be doing some tests this week to get a baseline in case I continue to have swelling like I have been lately. (Compression socks are my best friend!) They want to watch me very closely for any signs of Pre-eclampsia. I also learned of some changes involving the OB practice I go to which is either going to require me to change doctors or where I prefer to deliver. I’ll explain another time when I know more. My next OB appointment will be February 6th and I’ll be doing my glucose test then as well. I’m most looking forward to January 17th when we have our follow-up ultrasound to get the remainder of the pictures we need!
A little while ago, I wrote a letter to our little one when we found out she was going to be a girl. I’ve been hanging on to it and decided I would include it with my post at 20 weeks. I plan on making a book with all of my posts to give to her when she is older and wanted to include this:
Hello sweet girl! We are halfway to meeting you and I can’t even begin to explain how excited that makes me. We’ve already been planning for your arrival and I can’t believe in just four and a half short months we will be able to hold you in our arms. There’s still so much to do!
You see, little one, I’ve dreamed of you for as long as I can remember. I always knew I wanted to be a mom. Your mom. I prayed daily for the chance to be your mom. Someday when you are older, your dad and I will tell you the story of the journey we’ve been on just to have you in our lives. Even though it was far from simple, it was all a part of God’s plan and that makes it perfect. After all, if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have been able to meet some incredible people along the way and learned just how strong I really could be. Your story, from the very beginning, has been and will always be unique. Don’t ever forget that.
This journey has been a wild one since we’ve been together, you and I. We’ve had a few scares from the beginning and a lot of ups and downs. We found out you are really good at hide and seek! I always joked you knew how much I liked seeing you and you just wanted to give me the opportunity to get a few more sneak peeks. I’m convinced you’re a jokester just like your daddy. Even though things haven’t always been ideal this pregnancy, I’m not taking this experience for granted. Your little kicks are gentle reminders of the amazing miracle you are and the growing you are doing. It makes all those days of sickness and exhaustion completely worth it!
Speaking of your dad, just wait until you meet him! He is pretty amazing. When we met, I instantly knew there was something special about him and I know you will too. He is so caring and loving and I know he will take care of us girls, the best way possible. We couldn’t ask for a better leader for our family and he will be your knight-in-shining armor when you need him the most. You’ll soon find out he can be silly and fun and he’ll only want the absolute best for you. Oh, and a word of advice, as much as we hate to admit it, he’s usually right. So, keep that in mind when you think you know more than he does. 😉
There are so many things I can’t wait to do with you. I can’t wait to read you some of my favorite books and tell you stories from our past like how your dad and I met and about relatives you won’t be able to meet in this lifetime. I can’t wait to have a relationship with you like I have with your yia-yia. (You’ll quickly learn to love our Monday lunch dates!) Although we may not always get along, I hope we learn life lessons together. There will be tears and arguments and times we don’t see eye to eye but at the end of the day, I pray you’ll know my love for you overcomes it all. Just remember I’m your mom first and your friend second. I may be crazy at times but your well-being will always be my priority. I hope you treat people with respect and show them Christ-like compassion. I hope you learn your smile will be contagious and can instantly make someone’s day better just by showing them you care. Above all things, I hope you learn to be a kind.
I promise to hold you accountable and push you to be your best. I promise to be there for you when you need me and let you fly when you don’t, although that won’t always be easy for me. I promise to help build you up and be a strong woman of God. I promise to remind you, you are beautiful inside and out. I promise I’ll be there for your first broken heart and for every bad day I’ll be your shoulder to cry on. Most of all, I promise to tell you and show you “I love you” every day.
While there are so many of us out here that are so eager to meet you, we can wait. Take your time and “bake” a little longer. But when you do arrive, baby girl, please know it will be the best moment of my life!